Surprise

By July of 2011 we’d been seeing our RE for over a year. Throughout that time I’d become more open to sharing the details about our endeavor with a select few. At first it was difficult because I couldn’t help be feeling like I was failing as a wife (yes I know that’s crazy but I’m just being honest that’s how I felt). But Chad and I both agreed that despite the fact that it was a very personal situation we wanted to share our story in hopes to help others in similar circumstances. It was so inronic how I would cross paths with other women (some were even friends from years back) that were also struggling with fertility challenges. I found comfort in sharing our story and describing how it was a catalyst to defining our faith and spiritual growth. I hoped others would find a similar opportunity to open their hearts to the Lord. I shared scriptures, some of my favorite Christian music and Christian books that brought me hope with the other women. It became my own personal mission field where I felt God was calling me to serve others in. One thing I noticed was that it was really difficult to feel sorry for myself when serving others. It just had a way of putting things into perspective.  In July we had started another cycle of fertility and I headed to an ultrasound to check my progress. To my surprise this was no ordinary visit. The RE told me that the ultrasound revealed the long awaited blessing…we were pregnant!!! The added shock was that we weren’t just a couple weeks pregnant; we were actually about 8 weeks along! The doctor pointed to three black spots on the monitor and informed me that it looked like we actually had originally been pregnant with triplets but had lost two of them in the weeks prior (which explained what I thought was my June cycle).  My heart sank with disappointment upon hearing the news but was quickly renewed with excitement and hope when I saw the flicker of the tiny little heartbeat of the one baby that was left! Praise God! His word is always true.  Genesis 1:28 “Then God blessed them and said, "Be fruitful and multiply”.